Don’t Give Up… Press on!

Almost four and a half years ago arrived our second surprisingly dark, super curly haired beauty, a promise from God and a blessing for our union. We conceived Rebekah on our honeymoon after quite the whirlwind engagement of six months. She was a word spoken to our heart and a sunrise after the darkness of death. Pete’s mom passed away four days before our wedding. A wonderful woman I barely got to know who suffered long with lung cancer.

For my husband picking up the pieces was a little hard after losing his mother, but Joy comes in the morning. Rebekah, named by God was our blessing to come after the passing of his mom. She was spoken to me before I had even met Pete. She was the vision of beauty after darkness and the result of our union in the tent of his mother, if you know the story of Isaac and Rebekah, you will understand what that means and what it meant to us approaching the wedding and his mother’s failing health.

In the midst of life’s unbearables, there is God, always there, always present, always speaking. If you are in-tune and listening carefully, He speaks life into you. God spoke to us the story of Isaac and Rebekah and we carried that with us in each and every moment, every step of the way. And we were reminded after the wedding when everything settled and life began to move forward again. Specifically when things got tough, we knew how God came through for us before and we could count on Him!

So when the next major event came, we were ready! And the events came… We had a promise of a son, and when he didn’t show up on “our time schedule”, well you can imagine, disappointment can grab you if you’re not careful. And then when we miscarried, what happened to the promise? Did it just disappear? No, God doesn’t promise and then not fulfill His word. Jeremiah arrived exactly one year later to the day. God is so faithful! Jeremiah was a word spoken, Jeremiah 1:5. Another word to hang onto through the loss of Pete’s father who passed away three months before Jeremiah was born.

If God spoke a word and there was earth, light, waters, grass, animals, man… how then can we not trust Him to speak a word into our lives.

Press on mighty warriors, don’t give up, get a word and hold onto it!


It’s a choice…


It’s a choice… if you had a choice, what would you choose?

My life is beautifully crazy and fun, its full of love, frustration, smiles, tears, laughter, yelling and patience (somewhat). I can choose to be any of these things depending how the day is going. Much like everyone else’s life, it really isn’t much different… I have successes and failures, I have better days and those that I’d just like to write off as NEVER happened! But there is one difference, one very important difference… I choose to believe in a man greater than any other. Yes, I choose to put my faith in Jesus and believe that there is a God out there. I have put Him in the center of my life, given Him all control. Scary thought, right? But this is where my Hope comes from, a beacon of light amongst the darkness. It is what makes all the difference in this world. It’s what makes me want to be a better person.

Christianity is a choice to Love.

I am no way perfect, I mess up just about everyday in some area of my life. Like today, in the busyness of my life, I dressed for work in jeans thinking it was “dress down day for united way”… guess what, its not, its tomorrow and I have a big meeting this afternoon which includes my boss! Ooops. Ok maybe todays’ issue is not too serious, but I can tell you many a days where we have been thrown through the wringer. But I believe we come out of the washer a little cleaner, a bit worn yes… but definitely better. I’ve learned to love myself with all my faults. I’ve learned to smile when I’m going through something. I’ve learned to focus on others and lend a hand to help and not dwell in my own woes. I choose to Love in any circumstance.

Christianity is a choice to Believe.

I have been to the depths of hell and much suffering in my life. With only the belief held tight in my fist that this world sucks, I had no where to put my trust! Now I can’t think of any other way to live my life and I love it! I choose to believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins and was resurrected to the side of his Father. I choose to believe He is there and everywhere, working in my life and everyone else’s giving hope and love.

Christianity is a choice.

In the muckiness of life, I still believe it is beautiful!

I choose Christ, I choose Love, I choose Hope, I choose to Believe.

CRAZY Worship at the Dude Ranch!


Ever had those nights where you can’t sleep? You are stirred at 1 am and 3 am and so on… not for any specific reason that you are aware of but you just keep waking up… you look at the clock and snuggle yourself back into comfort telling yourself “I’m so tired” , “I need more sleep”.

Do you ignore it?

More often than not, it’s the Holy Spirit trying to wake you to heed His desire. Much of the darkness of this world happens through the night, while we are asleep.

I want to share something that happened a few weeks ago that was life changing for me. I am often woken through the night to pray, but since my third child I have ignored the Holy Spirit… sleep has been my whine, “But I need to sleep, I’m soooo tired and I have to get up at 5 am for work”. I spoke with a dear friend about it whining… “I just can’t get up”. She encouraged me to Just Do It (I’m sure she had been praying for this specifically for me). The very next time the Spirit woke me, I was empowered and ready!

It definitely wasn’t the opportune time but I was ready to answer the call. We were away at the Dude Ranch for our anniversary sleeping in a covered wagon. Yes, a covered wagon just like the ones on “Little House on the Prairie”… its called glorified camping 😉 Pete was snoring away and I was woken but this time was different, for some reason I reached for my phone and put on worship music… instantly my body was up and I put in my ear phones and started worshipping. I tried to sing and dance quietly as we weren’t the only ones at the ranch. Worship was off the hook, I worshipped for 2 hours and it felt like 5 minutes. I bounced and danced like never before and felt as if I wasn’t even moving, I wasn’t tired or out of breath and I didn’t need to stop… it was beautiful and effortless! I felt like I was flying, lost in the Spirit. Then it quickly stopped and I’m like… ummm one more song… please. I even tried to play one more song but instead was pressed to drop to my knees and wait, and I did. Instantly, I received a text message from a friend in need and the evening finished after comforting her to sleep!

See, we don’t always know until after the fact why the Holy Spirit leads us as He does, but know that its for His purposes and just be OBEDIENT 😌 no matter how silly or CRAZY it might seem. Think of the things we have already missed out on by not being obedient to the call.

And, if everything you’re doing doesn’t seem to be working… Worship! There’s no better way to improve, motivate, release, encourage… a situation than worshipping the one and only Almighty God!

What an amazing night that I will never forget and pray for more just like it! And to be honest, I didn’t even miss or need the sleep, I woke up bright eyed and ready.

By the way, the next morning Pete showed me how CRAZY the wagon was rocking while I worshipped…LOL Oh my Goodness!! I’m sure everyone thought I was CRAZY 😳
Psalm 27
Scriptures for sleepless nights:
“When you can’t sleep, don’t count sheep. Talk to the Shepherd.”

A New Level



I did it… 24 Hours of Worship! (Inspired by Rev KDGoodnews)

God is calling you deeper! Take the limits off and put your whole self in.

I am a worshipper by heart and have felt the presence of God through worship. He has touched me and taken me to places I can’t even put into words… but the thought of worshipping for 24 hours straight… well that’s just absurd, right!  Is that what you were thinking, chuckling. An exciting thought but I too was like, what?! Until I felt the challenge press on me seriously.

I worshipped from 7 am Monday morning until 7 am Tuesday morning. This was not just worship music playing in the background of my day.  It was worship music playing and my voice and heart singing out loud to Jesus at all times, purposeful and dancing in my office with my hands raised high when I could. Now, walking down the hallway at work I was a little more reserved and respectful of my surroundings but the song was in my mind and on my tongue and quietly poking its way from my lips. There was a nurse on guard outside a patient’s room and he saw me all day, back and forth singing and bouncing down the hall as I went about my work day in worship. He finally stopped me and had to ask what I was singing because he (with a big smile) saw the joy flowing from my countenance. A lady in the elevator mentioned that I was just glowing…

God is calling us into deeper relationship:  Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)  3 “Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” 

Mark 3:13 (NIV) Jesus went up on a mountainside and called to Him those He wanted, and they came to Him.

God is calling us to give ourselves in whole, not in part:  Matthew 16:24 24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 25 For whoever wants to save their life[f] will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.

Romans 12 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

I saw and experienced a new level… even still so hard to put into words all I experienced through 24 hours of worship. Joy unspeakable, a confidence with no doubts, a future with no boundaries as I let go of a world full of expectations and limits, and a spiritual presence like never before.

If we give up our agendas and put aside “our time” and greet each day as His in full surrender, I think we’d be very surprised at what and how much we can accomplish through Him without fear, condemnation and limits. God has called us ALL to be great for His kingdom and do great things, to love and impact people. Count the cost… he requires us to meet new levels, to continue to surrender ALL… (yep, everything) and move forward. Have you given yourself completely to Him? Have you given up your agenda to be and do and say what He wants and where He wants you to go?

We find relationship through reading the Word, Praying and Worshipping. How many things have been overcome in the Bible through worship? Let’s not forget the power of worship and how we can overcome areas in our lives by just worshipping him FULLY.

Let’s not get stuck in a place without growth… let’s not be content with where we are at. Be on fire and inspired to move forward. Nothing is impossible!

I am singing “Take the Limits Off”, by Israel Houhgton right now, while typing this.

A life changed!

So get out of the boat and I’ll see you at the next level!